Thursday, June 16, 2011

"Bless The Broken Road" - Rascal Flatts

Is our life plotted out ahead of time, or do we get to call some of the shots along the way?

Forgive the brief religious discussion, I'm familiar with the philosophy of free will - the idea that God gives us the road map but we have the choice to veer away [positive or negative] from the plan and make our own way from time to time.

This internal discussion on life comes to mind after a conversation we had at the dining room table last night.

Peanut: Mom, how do you think life would be if you hadn't miscarried and I had a 2 year old brother or sister?
whoa. didn't see that coming.
Me: [silent - tears filled my eyes instantly]
Peanut: sorry mom
Me: no, no. Don't be. I'm just thinking for a second.
Peanut: [looking down at her spaghetti, no she didn't like the butter chicken ;)]
Me: Peanut. I love you.
P: [smile]
Me: well . . . . I'd hope it be a lot like it is here today. I like today. Do you?
P: ya Mom, I really do.
Me: There would be a lot less marathons, I'd imagine. Probably would not have been a 24 TM run. I'd still be working from home . . .we may have moved?! I don't truly know kid.
P: [grin]
Me: [I could see her brain was working over time]
P: Do parents really love their kids the same?
Me: yes, for the most part but we all know I'm Nana & Papa's favorite. [I kid. I kid.] Yes, Peanut.
P: but I want to be YOUR favorite. I don't ever want to "share" you.

We continued for another 5 minutes.
It. was. awesome.
Loved discussing how some things we get to decide/choose . . . . other things we freaking "get" to go through.

The choices we make, the places we go and the people we meet - they all truly make a significant impact on the life we live.

It's fun to dream about the future, and how it's being impacted by the people and activities we/I am focusing on today.

I have no idea what [EXACTLY] tomorrow holds, but I know I'm going to freaking love it.

Happy Thursday, My Friends.


LB said...

wow. i have a feeling i will have a similar but different conversation when haley is old enough to wonder why we chose not to have more children. due to her genetic condition. wow, parenting! BTW, i just looked down at my cell phone: 4:44 (EST) :)

Kim K. said...

Love this post! Live intentionally :) :)

Christie said...

My so called mantra has always been...‘Destiny is not a matter of chance. It is a matter of Choice. It is not something to be awaited for but something to be achieved. I am the master of my own fate, the captain of my sole, I AM MINE'

Allison said...

sweetest little girl ever :)

Unknown said...

She's wise beyond her years... what a sweetheart!

Michelle said...

I just love the conversations you have with Peanut!

Julia said...

what an amazing post. your daughter sounds amazing :)

Kelly Leigh said...

Ah this topic was brought up on my facebook a lil while ago... my family reminded me that

"I don't know what my future holds, but I do know who holds my future."

I'm still trying to wrap my head around the concept that someone else can be in charge, but the decisions I make still matter.

Marlene said...

That is really really sweet. I kind of want to give you a hug right now!

Kevin and Kim Partridge said...

Again, you didn't warn me that I would need a tissue. What an unbelieveably fantastic, sensitive girl you have. She comes from an unbelieveably fantastic mom. Of course things would be different, but you would have missed out on so much. I think of two babies that I miscarried that if I hadn't, I wouldn't have Chloe, or two more that if I hadn't I wouldn't have Blake. And if I didn't have you, I would be boring.

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